
"Broken Heart" by David Goehring
[This is a letter from one of my readers;]
Hi Ann-Sofie, Hope you are doing good! I came across your blog while reading a post on the Osho blog. I really liked your blog and I appreciate your efforts. I think you are doing a great job with your spread love mission. I am writing you this mail, seeking some friendly help, as I could relate to a lot of beliefs in your blog.
I am 27. I am from India and it is common here for the parents to seek a match for their kids. While my parents were searching for a match, I gradually fell in love with this amazing person. We have known each other for more than a year, but it was only this July that we slowly graduated to our new relationship. And it all happened so naturally and felt so divine, that I had every reason to believe that it would last forever. But we had to stop seeing each other after just a month. In spite of the fact that we love each other and want to spend our life together. He has to make the sacrifice due to some really difficult situations at his family side. I totally understand and respect that fact, more so because I know how much he loves me and how difficult it is for him. And I am not making any assumptions here. I have seen the pain, agony and even the tears in his eyes, which he tries to hide from perhaps even himself. And in spite of that, he is putting his family above his own happiness. And he wants me to move on. I have been trying since last 2 months, but it is not that easy. We hardly even communicate now, but nothing seems to soothe the pain of the big hole left in my heart.
My friends have been supporting, but they advice me to be practical and to move on. More so, as he has made up his mind not to keep in touch to avoid making it difficult for us to move on. He doesn’t seem to have any hope of any way we could be together. And in spite of everything, I still can’t give up. My parents, unaware of this episode, have a prospect for me, whom they want me to meet by around month end. I don’t know if I am ready to move on. I don’t want my marriage to be based on a compromise. I don’t want to involve my parents, as they will end up being anxious over something which seems out of control.
Its nobody’s fault, no one is to be blamed. But the loss is mine. I found the love of my life, true and beautiful in every sense and before I could even absorb myself completely in the experience, I am supposed to let go! Where did I go wrong? Is there any way I can bring him back or cope up with the life without him being a part of it? Is such a life possible when someone has touched your soul?
Love…
“Just me”
[Reply by Ann-Sofie;]
Dear “Just me”,
I feel with you since your words definitely come from deep within. I have been heart-broken too and it is never easy to get over but just as your friends suggest, you will eventually move on but not until you are ready. Personally I don’t believe in match-making couples, especially since they are based on the parents requests and believes. Who are they to know who will touch your inner-most parts? Who are they to choose who you are gonna spend the rest of your life with? With that said though I am sure it is possible to have a connection and perhaps even fall in love with the partner over time. But as I see it you are a very romantic and emotional person, just like me, and for us compromises won’t do. Is there any way you could explain to you parents that you are not ready to get married or that they could let you get more involved in the process?
For the other part you need to appreciate more of what you shared with this very special person. Isn’t it amazing that you met someone who opened up your heart at soul-level? Aren’t you grateful for those moments you shared together? Would it make you feel any different if you consider him being Heaven-sent to show you real love, for you to learn one of the most important lessons in life? I think it might help you to look at this in a wider perspective and to understand that life is a journey of growth. We cannot always decide what will happen but do know that you are safe and your higher self present situations that is for your soul’s best knowledge. If he is meant for you, then the two of you would find a way back to each other, simply pray for experiencing what is best for everyone involved.
As for actions I would recommend you to write a good-bye letter to your dear loved one. If you decide to really send it or not is up to you. If you feel in your heart that there is a chance for the two of you then have you truly told him how you feel? Include everything you are grateful for, every special moment and memory you shared together. This will also help you to let go, look at the situation with some distance and at the same time feel grateful. We cannot decide who are to love us, all we can do is to love without expecting anything in return, a very big quest for human nature. As Osho says if love is non-possessive and non-demanding, only then you experience true love.
I would also recommend to write a love letter to yourself. Write at least three pages of pure love messages to yourself and how deeply you deserve to be loved, both from a partner but also from yourself. A good relationship always starts with yourself. It has been said many times but just as often it is being over-looked.
When you feel ready, and this can take a while, I would highly recommend a wish-list for your future husband. Even if your parents are to choose the person you can highly influence the decision with the magic of Law of Attraction. Simply write down the qualities you would like to have in your future marriage. The more grateful you feel about everything you already have, and will receive, the more it can multiply in your experience. Life is meant to be joyful and abundant and you are not an exception.
I hope this has been of help and that your heart will find some ease soon.
With Love,
Ann-Sofie
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